Howdy from Havana ,Illinois.

I'm going to be up front about it and was thinking tonight just how much music has helped me cope in so many ways either through break ups, bad relationships, health issues, lonliness, death and just life. Rarely do I meet  people who I can connect too or relate too so I'm the odd duck out hence  why I'm such an isolated person. People don't get the pain I've been though, life experiences or get my sense of humor. Maybe two or three people on the  entire planet some what has a general idea what or who I am. Music has been important in helping me cope with things in bad times or when I feel alone  which is pretty much all the time especially latley.  My music, movies and Tv  shows I watch all depend on the mood I am in. If I'm not in the mood for it I simply cannot focus plain and simple. It's hard to explain and yes I am a very very weird individual.  Probably  why most of society hates me I don't play by  their rules or conform to customs or

First off if you're easily offended and don't like what I say scroll on elsewhere as my opinion will not change and all I will do is laugh at you if you complain how I stepped on your little feelings. I do not sugarcoat for anyone so if you got a problem with it I really do not care. To each their own on opinions and opinions are like assholes everyone has one. Moving on the stupid media has been covering the royal wedding of Prince Harry and some chick as if alot of Americans give two shits. Alot of us didn't bother watching as like I didn't watch his brother's and Kate's back in 2011. I had the same feelings while in the hospital when everyone talked about it and it was all on tv. Shut up, shut up, shut up some of us have better things to worry or care about that two nincompoop's do. However since the media and people expect us to care then expect negative opinions and some hilarious jokes and some snark along the way. People are people and we w

I need to vent and don't care who sees it because i have very little social interactions or validations. Okay this day started off good husband and I arguing over finances and how to do things as  usual. He's pushy on his opinion and I stick to mine so we're both stubborn as hell and think  each other idea is the better one. I wanted to move to keep a roof over our head soon and got  approved for an apartment and he wanted to put the car in the shop. Well today the car gave out so i guess he wins but we also might both lose if no one will work with us on the apartment. We might have to stay here a month or so and try to replace this piece of junk if they allow it but also may lose the new apartment which maybe be cheaper and more convinent which is next to walmart and a gas station. The nearest store now is like a mile and the gas stations are blocks and blocks away so here it isn't convinent with no vehicle so we're screwed and probably can't get an

Okay this is something different going to rant also encourage people who are struggling to get help before it's too late. I'm going to address my personal issues with booze myself when I was young and stupid plus my brother n laws pill popping habit he refused to get help for. I don't think I was really addicted to booze myself personally. I know I just did it to kill mental pain, have some fun, and do things socially like go to bars as well as be an adult since i was in my lower up to mid twenties drinking but i  stopped cold turkey and have no desire to drink as now as an old fuddy duddy I guess I see it's a waste of time and pretty pointless. Yes, I'm an old fart. Okay I'm joking here because i'm not encouraging anyone to ever drink. It is a waste of money, time and a risk to your organs. Some people can control it and to each their own while others not so much. My personal experience with booze is I was young and wanted to do more adult  thi

Why do people on local facebook sale pages jerk you around even when you state in the ad serious replies only do not waste my time?  Either buy the product or don't bother to respond at all.  It's not that hard. I also hate the people that try to haggle and lower prices to nothing.  Get lost with that bull crap idiots. Oh and  then you get the people from out of town who look in Canton groups then message you wanting for you to drive to Peoria to sell them a  five or ten dollar item and I'm like Noooo not going to happen.  I end up telling some of these people off in a very  manner because i'm honestly sick of dealing with people jerking me around.  I'll be honest this lowers my faith in humanity and  increases my dislike for people even more to the point I'll avoid people at all costs if i have to due to anxiety levels.  This is all my husband's idea to sell random items in the house to bring in a few bucks to get by but I get stucking having to

Someone in the Peoria facebook railroad group posted a picture of KJRY with the F's in the lead tied up at Mapleton (Kolbe) preparing to depart west. So once he posted a picture of it departing Mapleton I go sit at Rawalts which is east of Canton and an old train stop of the TP&W which has a siding the KJRY uses for storing cars. There was other railfans there which i rarely see any unless something was going on or just some stray random railfan but there was like four of them. Here i thought was going to have this spot to myself....nope. I don't care it's actually a welcomed change. The last two cars were gondola's so the thought popped in my head if they were going to be dropped off at the siding off Second Avenue in Canton so Hitchcock Scrapyard will load them so KJ can pick up on another day. I drive back into town and make the decision to stop at Second and good thing I did. They passed then slowed then stopped and the conductor switched  the track s

Trying something different as a friend suggested so here it goes. I guess Ask a question about railroads or whatever and  maybe start a conversation. I'm not good at starting conversations but what the heck. Okay I might not be the one to ask on alot of stuff since I railfan but have no inside information or knowledge of alot of railroad activities but  an attempt to start conversation feel free to ask something. I'm curious about readers how did they get into railfanning? What is their favorite lines? Do they get stared at or people stop them to ask if they're okay? I want to know other people's encounters, good experiences, favorite catches and lines or what not. I want to build a platform for conversation. I guess since i'm not the best at words or if i asked this write I'll end it at there...I guess ask me anything. I don't know. I have never done anything like this due to anxiety.... I cover trains, geese and local discussion but what

Yesterday May 8, 2018 I was running errands when heard KJRY in town. When I get out of the store I get on the Cuba Black top and around the Wee  Ma Tuk road.  Since I'm tired of the same old spots I head onto Cuba to throw in some gas and grab a drink then go off Grant Road between Cuba and Smithfield and take pictures there. I film it with my phone at Smithfield, snap a few pictures at Seville then go to the location which was my motivation to chase it. I go to this bridge on Marietta Road and film it as it passed under. Prex #2040-2003 ( two Gp20's) lead the train which was a very short one and could get the entire train in one shot  if you snap at the right angle. I tru to do a live stream on Facebook at New Philidelphia but failed and also failed south of Bushnell. I didn't kow how to find it til Mike a friend on Facebook informed me how. I don't think I'll be doing that anymore since i got my  face in my attempt to live stream the geese. The wind ble